TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN

Dear Sir/ Ma'am:

Today, June 9th 2009, exactly 2240-- for the first time in a long time, I feel rejected. It is not my first time, not my second time but this one penetrated deep into my chest, rib, heart and down to my esophagus. Little exaggerated, don't you think? NO. You would absolutely feel this way when you get rejected to a person that you hoped that would change the way that you are living love NOW.

I was asked, When should I reconsider? I reconsider stuff when it breaks some or a part of my morals. But in breaking some of my morals, I should think if he/ she/ it/ they are worthy to have that kind of sacrifice. 

Yes, you got it right, sir. I did reconsider. I tried not to. I explained that I should not but human as I am, I am weak. I allowed for this "reconsider" to take place. I swallowed some of my morals and placed aside some of my pride, just for this reconsidering to happen. 

Then, all the IFs and BUTs collided, I am faced with the reality. It could, would and should NOT work. That's why I reconsidered in the first place. Because on the first place it should not be because of the differences. It would not be because of the close contact of peers. And it could not work because even though it started out right it is just too much to handle. It is just to hassle. 

Sir, if you find that you know what I am talking about contact me (you know my digits). I am not fuzzed, frustrated or furious. I am just happy that I got to meet someone like you. BUT i have surely learned that I should stick to my morals and try not to reconsider. Not anymore. [Or if I would reconsider, I should think about it 100 Million Gazzillion times] 

Thank you for your time and consideration. I am not hoping for your reply.

Respectfully Yours,

Ms. Reconsider

P.S. I feel rejected not because you can't be with me. I feel rejected because I thought you were the last person who would judge me. I am seriously fed up with  bullshit and hearing bullshit from you made me realize sometimes life is not worth it [not in a suicidal point of view but in experience wise point of you]. I really did hope that you were the one who would take aside the selfishness because you know me better than other people but no, you made your choice and be one of them. Judging to what have happened and not looking of what's in store. *Sigh*

I apologize for all the inconvenience. Do not worry, this would be the last time that I would talk about this. 

"There’s only one thing

To Do

Three words

For you

I LOVE YOU"

**THIS IS FOR THE SAKE OF WRITING. THIS IS NOT DONE TO HURT ANYONE AND ANYTHING IN ANY FORM.